This year has been a very rough year. I lost what for some reason I believe is the love of my life, my Guinea Pig, schools been rough... all sorts of things. I could live without so much just to have him by my side like he used to be... I could be in the crappiest situation imaginable and I would still be happy because he was by my side. I just pray so hard that time will work things out for us... I so desperately want to show him that I am still the me he fell in love with, I just got lost along the way. That's the thing with growing up- we experience things that change us. Sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. Either way, changes are inevitable. I just pray so bad that I don't lose him for good because of my bad changes. I will be the me I once was, it'll just take time.
Another thing... I am so unbelievably happy now that I am back for good. I just hope that I can stay. For the first time in four years, it's not me or my family that has any say in where I will be. :( I wish I would have stood up for love when I had the chance. I really hope it is not too late.
All I can do is work on me and keep the faith that things will work out.