tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-26198018339170520322023-11-15T08:32:48.476-08:00Life as I see itRunnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.comBlogger29125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-60791287032937140042014-12-16T07:50:00.001-08:002014-12-16T07:50:19.185-08:00Feeling Lost <span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">As I sit here thinking about everything... I came to the conclusion that from here on out I am just going to be me. Not the new me, but the old me, the me I recognize. I don't want to be somebody that I am not. I'm not "crazy," clingy, sad, unhappy, worried, or any of those kinds of negative things. I am happy, funny, loving, fun to be around- an all around good person. While it is taking time to return to "me," I am finding comfort in the fact that I am returning. </span><div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">This year has been a very rough year. I lost what for some reason I believe is the love of my life, my Guinea Pig, schools been rough... all sorts of things. I could live without so much just to have him by my side like he used to be... I could be in the crappiest situation imaginable and I would still be happy because he was by my side. I just pray so hard that time will work things out for us... I so desperately want to show him that I am still the me he fell in love with, I just got lost along the way. That's the thing with growing up- we experience things that change us. Sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. Either way, changes are inevitable. I just pray so bad that I don't lose him for good because of my bad changes. I will be the me I once was, it'll just take time. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Another thing... I am so unbelievably happy now that I am back for good. I just hope that I can stay. For the first time in four years, it's not me or my family that has any say in where I will be. :( I wish I would have stood up for love when I had the chance. I really hope it is not too late. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Until then...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">All I can do is work on me and keep the faith that things will work out. </span></div>
Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-76881786725791563112014-12-13T13:08:00.002-08:002014-12-13T13:08:28.455-08:00The heartbreak continues I've been fine for a while but now my strength is starting to wear me out... I am trying so hard to be the person that I was before, but it's hard when I have no idea what's happening. Things would be so much better if I could just hear those words that we can try to work things out... All I hear is "maybe" when I ask if there's a chance we can get back together. I am tired of failing at trying to take the high road through all of this. It breaks my heart that someday, I may not be at this place with the person that I love (even if he currently does not love me). What I would give for one last chance... I really am capable of being the person that I used to be :'(. <div>
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Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-79935281470840845812014-10-19T09:27:00.002-07:002014-10-19T09:27:31.188-07:00All I do is mess upI am devastated... All the progress I made toward fixing things was thrown out the window due to a moment of insanity. I wish so bad I could take back what I have done... It kills me inside that I did that. I wish he knew how sorry I really am and that I mean it that I truly am done screwing up. He's my best friend and what I feel like is the love of my life. I know there are plenty of fish in the sea, but he really is special. He stuck with me through so much and throughout it all he was always so friendly and knew how make me feel special, even if he didn't realize it.<br />
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I wish so bad I could go back to when these problems started happening and fix them so we could avoid what is happening now. I have so much to offer him but may never have the chance because I screw up. Every night when I go to bed, I go to bed smiling because I am laying next to my best friend and guy whom I love. It's so hard going through this knowing that he doesn't love me anymore and that in an instant, this could all be over. My heart tells me that if I stop pushing and give him time, that everything will be okay. That we will be back to how we used to be, only stronger now that I figured out my flaws and am actively fixing them. It's so hard to be patient because what if my heart is lying to me? :(<br />
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<br />Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-53581316731961287002014-09-29T05:51:00.001-07:002014-09-29T05:51:11.882-07:00Better Weekend, Better Life This weekend went great! I really feel the changes on myself working. After a very rough few weeks, I could honestly say I felt like myself again. I played computer games with him all weekend and it was like nothing ever went wrong... It felt great. It makes me so happy that maybe there is a silver lining in all of this. I got the help I needed and maybe there's hope. Everything about this situation seems different than most so I am very hopeful...With that, have a great week everybody. Life is what you make of it.Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-14014850447300552882014-09-26T11:41:00.002-07:002014-09-26T11:41:17.272-07:00What I'd give for one more chance... This may sound cliche` but I would give ANYTHING for that chance to fix what went wrong...Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-19510715643436914412014-09-25T07:28:00.001-07:002014-09-25T07:28:27.365-07:00The Heartbreak continues. Once again i've hit a hard spot in my life... As I was finally committed to living in Wisconsin, it is becoming pretty clear that it would be a tough decision to make... I mean, the only reason I wanted to be in Wisconsin was because of my now ex-boyfriend. It's hard to explain really. I wanted to be down here so bad, I am willing to give up a lot. Now, it's becoming increasingly clear that I am not welcome here, despite the fact we were in a relationship for almost 4 years....4 years on Sunday... It is devastating that instead of celebrating our time together, now it's just a matter of making it another day. Why must I always make my decision when it's too late? I loved him with all my heart and I managed to screw that up :'(.Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-69127381528229935462014-09-21T11:06:00.004-07:002014-09-21T11:06:51.292-07:00Nothing worse than heartbreak My heart feels as if it was just ripped out of my chest and stomped on... I feel like I can hardly breathe. It takes all of my power not to cry, and even so, I find myself crying virtually all the time. He was the best thing in my life and somehow I messed that up. A day doesn't go by where I don't kick myself for being so dumb. I would do anything and I mean ANYTHING to go back in time and fix the mistakes that now stand out like sore thumbs. I worked on myself, I am making progress and that is not good enough.<br />
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I lost my best friend and boyfriend in one day and it kills me inside. I know time heals all wounds but honestly, I don't see this wound ever healing. I screwed up by acting crazy during my darkest hour and that drove him away. That and the distance that plagued our relationship for a better chunk of time. I really miss my best friend, but what hurts is he doesn't miss me...<br />
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</3 heartbroken forever.Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-12399176556142945752014-09-15T19:35:00.002-07:002014-09-15T19:35:40.545-07:00Feeling rejectedEver have those rough patches where everything seems to be slipping away? I have been feeling that a lot lately... It's sad that all I want is to be loved back.Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-90439136835316182372014-09-03T19:30:00.003-07:002014-09-03T19:30:53.346-07:00It's my way or the highwayEver have people give you an ultimatum where it's pretty much their way or the highway? I seem to be facing that a lot these days. It's getting to the point where I don't know what to do. No matter what I do, I seem to disappoint somebody. It's coming to the point where I feel like I am going to lose love or my family. Will there ever be a time where I won't be disappointing everybody?<br />
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<br />Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-76364380151809031822014-07-08T07:45:00.001-07:002014-07-08T07:45:29.747-07:00Life is what you make of it Today is a new day! With that of course comes new challenges. Even though it can be quite difficult, it is important to overcome those challenges. One thing that completely amazes me is how people are always telling me that I only think about myself. If i only thought about myself, I can guarantee that I would not be doing the things that I do-cleaning the house when people are too tired, cooking everyone nice meals when they are too tired, stuff like that. I am always doing for other people, yet somehow, that gets completely overlooked by some. Why? I wonder. It kind of stinks when people automatically assume, when they do not even know the whole story. <div>
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Anyways, it is important to remember to rise above those challenges that try to break you down. While it may not seem like it, life won't always be a struggle. Life is what you make it. Which is why I am done letting myself fall between the cracks. I am going to work harder than I have ever worked before, to pursue my dreams. I am turning 22 in a little over than a month, so now is the time I shine. I am done putting myself after everyone else. I am going to work hard in school and get the degree I have always dreamed of. Life is what you make of it, and that is what I am going to live by. </div>
Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-34677860932191171412014-07-07T07:10:00.001-07:002014-07-07T07:10:11.618-07:00Life's Mess<br />
Now summer 2014 is halfway over and I sit and wonder... Am I happy with the way things are going? The answer is no. I have that feeling that I am getting nowhere in life and it honestly makes me sad. I should be getting ready to graduate next year, but I am nowhere close because I am stuck in this never ending circle of a mess. I look around and all I see is mess. I can't help but wonder, is this what my entire life is going to be like? Hopefully the answer is no, because I honestly do have hopes and dreams.<br />
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Now that the new year is upon us, I find myself thinking about how my life is going. Anybody else struggle with feeling like you aren't doing anything worthwhile yet? I find myself thinking this all the time, so i've come to the conclusion that this is the year that will change. While I don't know what I want to do exactly, I think i've got a pretty good idea. First I'll have to make some healthy changes. More on that later! <br />
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Hope everyone has a great New Year! Make this YOUR year! :) Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-39249579587874530542013-05-16T12:17:00.005-07:002013-05-16T12:17:48.018-07:00Summer is almost here! <span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Finals week is almost over, meaning Summer time is almost here. Most people would be excited for school to be over, but me? I actually am going to miss it for a few months. It's going to be weird not constantly reading or working on school work. Needless to say, I am very excited for classes to resume. I just can't wait until I can transfer to a University. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Now that Summer is almost here, now what? I think it'll be fun to go on runs and swimming! Another thing I am excited for is a nice rain storm. Nothing is more relaxing than the smell of rain and the sound of it hitting against the house. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;">Today is the first day of spring, even though it may not look like it outside. I am certainly excited as that means beautiful weather is just around the corner. Don't get me wrong, I love winter but sometimes some warm fresh air sounds absolutely wonderful. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;">1. Go on bike rides</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;">3. Go rollerblading</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;">5. Go to the state fair! </span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;">6. Having bonfires (can't forget S'mores!)</span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130;">Here's to beautiful weather and spending some long over-due time outdoors! </span></div>
Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-63769383803919126902013-03-20T12:30:00.001-07:002013-03-20T12:30:51.448-07:00I must be insaneWell a few weeks ago I decided I needed to make some significant changes in my life. I decided to give Insanity a try. Man let me tell you, it is TOUGH. Even though i'm starting to get into better shape-I am constantly finding myself losing motivation. The only thing that keeps me going is my desire to not only lose weight, but to be happier with myself. I will keep this page updated throughout my Insanity process. Have a great day everybody!Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-34667809940736765712012-05-24T19:34:00.001-07:002012-05-24T19:36:45.532-07:00Raspberry Ketones Review<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">I have been using this product for about a month now and I am far from pleased. I started out by taking one capsule a day. After a week, I increased the amount to two a day. At the same time, I have been exercising daily and drinking a good amount of water. The only effect i've noticed with this pill is that after taking it, within a matter of time I feel sick to my stomach. I've been checking the scale weekly and notice no additional amount of weight loss. After using the product for a month, I have decided to quit taking it as all it does is make me feel sick. </td></tr>
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<span style="color: #073763; font-family: Arial;">I guess the lesson of the day would be live life to its fullest. Don't wish for a future date because the truth is, before you know it, you will wish that it was possible to rewind life. </span>Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-17788524394776883962012-02-03T16:15:00.000-08:002012-02-03T16:15:54.709-08:00Spring is on its way!<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Well it is already February, and let me tell you that I am so ready for it to be Spring. Winter is nice and all, but with no money to enjoy fun activities like skiing or ice skating, I would rather it be spring so i can atleast enjoy going on a nice stroll. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The weather the past few days has been nice though... 45 degrees! It felt amazing! Nothing feels better than being able to be outside without being bundled up as warm as possible. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ta-Ta-For Now!</span>Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-1698686335716289162011-10-20T09:17:00.000-07:002011-10-20T09:17:31.435-07:00Sharing Smiley360 Mission<a href="http://smiley360.com/189700.cfm#.TqBJgQ59F98.blogger">Sharing Smiley360 Mission</a>: I signed up for Smiley360.com http://smiley360.com *Please remember the FTC requires you to mention that you received a free sample courtesy of Smiley360 when sharing.Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2619801833917052032.post-34376958310902822562011-09-29T10:16:00.000-07:002011-09-29T10:16:17.490-07:00People Watching<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Sitting here on an uncomfortable bench for 2.5 hours can be kind of boring. Sitting on a computer typing away can get lets just say tiresome. When needing a much needed break from studies (that's if you didn't get hypnotized into Facebooks addicting ways), an exciting activity to partake in is people watching. At almost every moment, there is always people walking by. Sometimes you get to hear some new music as a student who loves rap walks by, for example. Just take a moment out of your busy day to see what people are up to these days- i did. </span>Runnergirl0892http://www.blogger.com/profile/05556840037230426490noreply@blogger.com0